Photo: Riverside Drive Illumination, sometime between 1910 and 1915, Bain News Service.
I am having a terrible day.
I work in customer service for Axon Optics and I’ve probably talked to or emailed many of you. I really enjoy helping others with photophobia and migraine because I suffer as well. But today is not good. The sad thing is, my day wouldn’t be terrible at all if I’d brought my indoor glasses.
I dropped an order off at the postal shop near my house today. The weather was lovely. It has finally cooled off a bit here in Utah, but the sun is still very bright. I wear my outdoor-tinted Cocoons when I’m taking walks. I’ve had them for a few weeks now and they make a huge difference for my light sensitivity problems. I am used to them now and the only time I notice that there is a rose tint is when I’m looking at a yellow light – the yellow looks lemon-lime instead of on the orange side.
Now I’m indoors. Incandescent lights only bother me if they’re very bright. Today I’m on campus, though, and there are fluorescent lights everywhere! They’re making it impossible to get anything done, and my Cocoons are just too dark for some of these spaces. I regret not taking the time to grab my indoor pair before leaving the house.
My temples are pulsing. Everything is so bright it’s making me nauseous. It feels like the world is swirling around me. Simple things like a door opening seem antagonistic because of how the light pours in. I guess I had just learned to live with it until I got my demo pair – now I need them because I know how comfortable I could be, every day.
I won’t be going to the grocery store tonight. I need to learn to carry my glasses in my purse just as I would my keys or wallet. I need them at the store just as much as I need that shopping list.
In the meanwhile, I’ll just sit in the dark. This isn’t a permanent solution, though; I don’t want to dark-adapt my eyes.